Hey timeO, I forgive you for not being "perfect", whatever that is....... can you maybe forgive yourself, just a little bit, for just a little while? I've screwed up plenty, You're not alone on that one, Learning to forgive myself was one of the hardest things I've ever tried to do. I think it's worth the effort, it unstuck me from a very hard place. You are worthy of forgiveness. Hang in there, ok.