I juts have to get thois out don't even know if anyone will understand I do great for days and I think I am makin lg friends I'm being funny and peppy and its all love and joy and then hlthats not fullfilling in any manner and the conversations seem so empty I want to talk about deep things not just talking to fill in space. I don't want to just make noise I want to have meaning to what comes out my mouth. And everyone else is still on the first attitiude of fun fun let's not have anything serious. Well where is the serious conversations who wants to discuss the lunar eclips being on the solstic and how that is effecting everyone and everything around us. And how you can feel the weight that ppl are carrying and how much of that has to do with barometric pressure as well as the moon and its pull on us and how it all flows and is integrated to be a part of something bigger. But since I have this urge to talk about tuch marvels and everyone else only wants to be saucy with each other then where do I go. If the feeling is to heavy and I need something light. Where are the dual people. Broadminded witty conversationalist. And if I can't be around one kind of ppl for very long they don't be friend you and bcz you need that other stimuli from other grps you dnt get to know any of them well. Its just where do you go when you've tried to find what you need from this contact I don't know how to explain and its just too much to even try and make it clear to anyone else but its makeing me a little on tjhe down side to know I will never have close relationships with these wonderful ppl I meet. They only want that one part of me. Either the fun no serious flirty. Or you just not fun anymore. And then never find anyone to talk about the other stuff with. *sigh I don't know idk