thanks Lilleth, I guess it's just how I grew up.. when I first came to PC, and wrote down my introduction, it felt that my problems are nothing compared to the others, and I felt that I should just keep it to myself cause the others need it more than I do. Guess, that's how I have been for so long, always forgetting about myself and always thinking of someone else. But thanks everyone for letting me vent and for not thinking that my feelings or problems are repetitive... Thank you.. Greatly appreciated..