I haven't spoken with him about it making things worse. But my next appointment isn't for another 2 1/2 weeks. Being that I'm military it is actually harder for me to get in to see him than if I were just going to a regular (non-military) pdoc. Also the fact that he is located about 2 hours from where I am and I schedule appointments through people here, who then schedule the appointment through his people... it's just a giant cluster *%!#.

But, I go on Thurs to get a referral to see another pdoc (to get a 2nd opinion) and I am going to request a local one... one that I can actually sit down face to face and talk to, because my current one I actually see through a video teleconfrence (pdoc television for the loss)

I'm just having a hard time with it right now, and it is so frustrating and I feel like there is no one to talk to about it. I've started opening up to my wife about it more and educating her on bipolar disorder, so now she is noticing the sudden and drastic mood swings. But still yet, she is always trying to 'fix' it by asking me why I get depressed or why I'm so happy all of a sudden. I just can't answer those questions, not sure if there even is an answer. And it is so damn frustrating I just want to break down.