Where do I start? My relationship is over after three and a half years, and we got engaged in May. Why did he purposs if it was going to end so abruptly. I mess up a lot . Not by cheating, but by being disrespectful in the worst kind of way. The day before last was the braking point, when I got wasted and got into an argument with him for no reason, and then hit him in the forehead. What an idiot I am, but why is he giving up on me? I know he loves me and I already have a appointment to see a phsycologist on Tues. I realize I have a problem, but I want to fix it not only for him, but for me. I don't know, do I even love him if I can treat him so poorly, or have I just been taking advantage of the fact that he loves me? Please help, I feel like I can't even breath, but I don't know what's worth fighting for. Do I let him go because that's what he wants or do I fight for the relationship that I thought would exist forever. Someone please reply!