Hey i looked up resources in your area this is a website that lists free crisis hot lines that you can call anonymous if you feel you may do something, it's hard for me to know where exactly the right area is but i think you can call a hotline and ask if there is low cost or no cost help available in your area. If there isn't at least you can speak to a professional for free about how your feeling. Please keep us posted and i hope the page helps a bit.

http://www.suicidehotlines.com/illinois.html