Hi, I'm not quite sure where to start. I've been in a very weary, and anxious state for almost a year now because of a number of events that have transpired in my life. One thing is that I've fallen in love with my first cousin. I've only seen her a couple of times as we live in separate states. We share alot of things in common, and she states she does love me but, is not sure whether she would want to be with me because of the complications. We're both in our mid 20's and share the same feelings for each other, although her feelings aren't as intense as mine. I love this girl with all my heart, and am really contemplating on commiting suicide if we don't end up together. I want her to be happy so I support what ever decision she makes. I however feel that I won't be able to live with this feeling for her. I'm also experiencing heavy financial loss. It just seems so hard now. Everything that is. I only want to be with this girl. I really love her and feel that I can make her happy. I've asked her to marry me, but she's not sure. I also feel in my heart that loving her is right. I don't know anymore. I know that suicide is not right, but sometimes I feel that commiting suicide will be the easiest solution, especially for me. I just can't live with this wonder and doubt of what it would have been if we were together.