Googley, thank you much. All T did was send me this link:
http://www.12step.org/the-12-steps/step-10.html

So I hear him. My job to do the work. I get it. I am just not strong enough to do it and I don't even know if I trust steps 1-9 yet! But he does it all the time so it is easy for him.

I feel right now like such a fool for telling him about my crap on a sunday now or any day ever. My head is a mess right now and I am just trying to avoid thinking about it until tonight. I dont know what my next step will be if anything or whatever. I should know whatever T was saying and stuff. Apparently he feels that I shoujld be able to resolve this if I just followed this steps so must be my fault.

I am set to see him Monday and i was afraid there would be snow and I couldnt see him and now I want it to snow so I cant see him but it stopped. I never ever in a zillion years want to see him again. I am too stupid to do therapy stuff I suppose.