I can't seem to find where I belong. I keep hearing everyone is different, but what if you are so different that you can't find anyone to relate to?

As a kid, I was like no other kid in school. With almost daily tantrums due to overactive emotions, very bright, social skills so bad they put me through training, very hyperactive, etc...

As an adult, I have some sort of mental illness for sure, but it doesn't quite follow the normal pattern of bipolar or psychosis, the best way to describe it is rapid mood changes with delusions, panic attacks and hypersensitivity. What in the world is that???

I have investigated different groups of people and found none I can totally relate to people with no psych problems I'm too different from. Mentally Ill I relate a bit, but I have some problems I don't think they have, and for some reason I can't relate well. ADHD, I had characteristics as a kid, but I don't relate to the adults. Asperger's, I've only spent a good amount of time with one of them and I can semi-relate with the special interests and some social skills problems but he was more socially inept than me and was much less emotional.

I've hit out and out depression....