When I was little my cousin was diagnosed as ADHD. My mom saw similarities between us and was convinced I was ADHD too so she had my pediatrician put me on Adderall. I was also treated for insomnia, depression, and suicidal tendencies. I do not think I have ADHD and I always thought I would feel better once I moved out of my mom's house so I moved out the day of my 18th birthday. Needless to say it didn't fix me. I got engaged and tortured my fiancée for fours years. I am always so up and down he begged me to get help but I lashed out at him and one day I just cheated on him and left him, He didn't deserve that. I moved in with the man I left him for and we were married in eight months. I didn't tell my family until a month later. My husband and I have had even worse ups and downs and we argue a lot because he is not as patient with me. I hurt myself pretty badly after one of our arguments and had to go to the emergency room. He didn't tell the doctors what I had done but he told me if I did it again he'd leave me. I got pregnant the next month and for a while I felt good but then I started to get stressed and I quit my job and moved out during my sixth month of pregnancy and moved in with my father. I know I need help and it has come to be apparent to me that I am likely Bipolar and I do want help for my son's sake but in all honesty, I am afraid to talk to a doctor. I don't even know what I would say to one.