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Dec 13, 2010, 09:01 AM
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Member Since: May 2008
Location: Alabama, USA
Posts: 1,309
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Sannah, I see what you're saying. The whole reason I started to spill it in therapy was because I wanted to work on it/get rid of it sooner rather than later. I knew it'd be hard and I knew I was being impatient with myself. I just want to be able to walk down a street thinking of anything but the past, be able to not be as affected by it anymore. Before, I used to let it rule my life. Now my life is ruling it.. That's a good thing I know.
silver_moon, I remember you  I'm glad this post made you happy to read  It's so lovely to see people come back a lot better isn't it?
I am starting to realise that everyone has bad days and while it can last a week, it's not going to last forever, it's never going to be as bad as before now because I won't let it.
David always says to me when I worry that I'll fall back down. "Kirsten, you won't fall back down, I know you won't because you can't" I always ask why and he comes back with "You won't let yourself. Simple as that. Because you're stronger now and you hate(d) where you were and don't want to go back there again so you're using your strength to stop yourself from going back there without even realising it". I'm glad he sees it!!
But yes, it's a hard lesson to learn. I'm getting there! Feeling a lot better today after having finished another new song and got lots of photo shoots sorted for this week. In fact,
That's the first video of my most recent song I hope you like it. It's been changed again :P
Thanks for all your replies everyone!
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