(((((Jen)))))

This is a difficult time of year. You say that you have prayed to God to take to take you away. Instead, please consider asking God to take away your negative feelings and thoughts so that you can live life as He would want you to - in a fulfilling way. Ask God to help you recognize these bad feelings before they take hold of you. Tell those feelings / thoughts in your head - oh no! not you again - and tell them them to go away. Ask for God's help everday to lessen the control of those old feelings on your life so that you can live. Keep praying for the strength to go on with your life and the knowledge to recognize when bad thoughts and feelings, and to not let them take control. Ask for God to help you fill your head with good plans and thoughts that will give your life meaning and fulfillment. Don't just ask once. Keep praying. All the best to you.