Thanks Sky, unfortunately the BOSS has asked for a meeting. I don't like these sorts of things. Several months ago I was so triggered at a meeting and felt so unsafe and misunderstood that I left the room. I was told that that was some big word for showing disrespect and not accepting authority. It was survival. I remember very little of that meeting or that day but I was triggered by what I thought to hear, "you are being selfish" Well, outa there I was taking care of the issue that I thought she was referring to.

For months I have been listening to my co-workers complain about lack of supervision and the supervisor not returning calls. I have kept quiet as I have been told that if I do not I will lose my job. All I have been able to say to these two youn women is, "if you are concerned you should speak with her or her super" That was one of the things that I had reported and my super denied. Seems a bit obvious at this point. What I know about my work place is that I can't fight em, they will win. They believe they are right and we do do good work. i will not get into legal crap though I am upset as my PTSD is a qualifying disability and they are so rubbing stuff in my face. Basically to do this job you need not to have ptsd. Okay, can I give it to You then? crap on a stick I am mad. I am hurt. My back is killing me. It is saturday night. Time for percoset and flexerill. I am so sad that I am accused of being bad again and I was really really busy and worried with my daughter and then very much in pain and I just couldn't move without a scream in there.

I want to quit this whole game. Why is everything so hard?