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Wow, I'm kind of overwhelmed here, reading all these replies. Thank you, thank you, thank you! And while I know it's been over a month since I started this topic, I'm happy to report that I've finally taken steps towards going back to therapy. Had my first session last week and I already got started with some mood stabilizers.
I'm just...
I don't even know. My new T was a bit confused, cause my GP had told him this was about depression, but when I saw him, he asked me how I felt and so, I told him I felt sad and with no motivation to get up in the morning, but all the while I was so agitated, my thoughts were racing and whatnot. He was looking at me like I was insane, sort of. This is why this bipolar thing confuses me, cause I feel very much dead inside, but on the outside I'm like that rabbit in the commercial. I get bored very easily, I switch from one thing to another in a matter of minutes, I can't think about one thing at a time etc. And then on top of all that, I'm angry at myself because of that.
Oh, dear. It seems to me like this is a vicious circle. I want to break free?!
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