wow. i can relate so much to this --intensity of feelings once you leave therapy and the feeeling of your therapist abandoning you to cope with things on your own, and your frustration in feeling like you are misunderstood, and she really doesn't quite "get" or "recognize" what you struggle with when you leave. and its especially annoying because a lot of times you feel worse then when you walked in the office and then you don't understand why you feel worse but, still convince yourself to go another time, and then when you go another time, and another time, you increasingly feel alone and like no one can really understand what your going through and you also just get TIRED of the same old feelings and frustrations every week. and it stinks to know your therapist is living all okay and your the one who has to take it home, in fact, you understand that this is just life and thats a part of therapy but, that doesn't neccessarily make the frustration you feel go away. I threw a tantrum once, one she didn't quite understand but,i felt i had a right to it, cuz sometimes you feel like your therapist is the one who put you through the pain in the first place and then, left with you to deal with it all on your own. even though we are adults, we sometimes revert to these tantrums a bit. these feelings are hard but, I hope I showed you through this post that a lot of what you are going through is normal when it comes to therapy but, its not hopeless... i feel a little better, No, life is not perfect...things still bother me...but, there is light at the end of the tunnel and I hope you can find hope in your healing. we all need it. it may not be perfect but, we can hope that we will push through the hard parts to get to the fufilling ones. lots of hugs and supports. you wouldn't believe how much I understand this post!