T talked about how i have been feeling so low.i was able to say i
m scared but that was it.T didnt seem to mind for once she did a lot of talking i think she knows things are not so good for me right now.she told me i need to imagine my son loving me and comming home and stuff i cant believe in a lie.but i couldnt tell her i just shook my heasd no.she told me i need to try because if i dont all i have is the dispair that i feel and that wories her.i think she said so many things i got even more overwelmed.i dont understand her telling me to imagine a lie to get me through or to feel better.IT"S A LIE