I just want to hug you right now. That is how this post makes me feel... that I need to reach out and hug you. I am so sad for you because I know how you are feeling...where you are right now. I am so sorry you are there. It is painful when he yells at the dogs, or the kids or even you. When they are having to take on so much because we are "lost" in our own world of depression it is hard on them. I have been dealing with the same here. It doesn't excuse their behavior, but I understand. We are supposed to be there beside them and yet we are fragile and frail. We look out through eyes that seem scared of our own shadows and how can we be expected to deal with one more thing - why now? Can't they manage to take care of things just a little while longer... we'll be ok soon I know we will...we have to be.