I do nothing with my life at this point. This is something i already know. I have big, big dreams, but right now theyre just dreams. I dont know how i will ever get out of this house. I dont even know where to start. The thought of having to put myself out there and meet new people is really f***in' with my head. Ive been isolated for so long i think human contact (besides my family) might be a little weird, but i want to be social. I have to be, if i want to achieve any of my goals. My family thinks im lazy and unmotivated, but its much deeper than that.i know i cant depend on them for emotional support. I got alot of things working against me but ill try to keep what little hope i have left alive.