After I had been to the psych ward twice, i constantly wished to be back there again, to have constant help and safety. I would have dreams about being back there and being safe, i would obsess about wanting to go back. Part of the reason i didn't stop myself from oding again a year later was that i wanted to be back there and be safe and feel comforted. Well i got my wish. I ended up going back another 4 times. I moved after that, and I've been to the psych ward in ks where i moved to, and i hated it, it was the worst psych ward ever, an because of this, i have not oded or threatened suicide again cause i don't want to go back there...