(((((((((Yesterdays))))))) I'm really sorry to hear how much you're struggling It's good that you are reaching out here and I hope we can help you feel less alone.

I'm wondering if you are seeing a counselor at all? Perhaps there is some way to receive treatment from the hospital on an out-patient basis? Does your doctor have any suggestions for treatment? I really hope there are some options available to you.

Thinking of you and sending hugs