No your not alone.I am also in a dark place and I have nobody, I have no friends or companions and I often feel numb,ashamed,sad,and empty.I wish I could just jump on someone and cry on them. (And I'm a guy, so that's really pathetic.) But I know that's not going to happen, because I don't have anyone for that, and I know I'll get hurt if I try to make friends because alot of people find me too depressing and strange to be friends with.I guess what I'm trying to say is I know how you feel and I truely wish I could be there for you to talk to.Please try to stay strong until you find someone.(I know you will!)If you want we can chat sometime and talk about our problems.