(((((((((((WePow))))))))))))

I shut down too when I can't see T for a long time. I think it's kind of okay. T says it's okay for me to take a break, things will come back up and we will deal with them when they do.

Sometimes when memories hit me (like yours did), if I write them down, I can sort of clear that space in my head, and know that what I need to talk about will still be there when I finally DO see T.

I'm sorry you're missing your session. I know it's really, really hard.