Someone online told me:

"You are f****** crazy to have let him in your life again! Well it is your friggin life! If you enjoy being abused off well don't come to me for help!"

First of all, I rarelly ask for help or support. Only when I feel I will not be able to hold on.

Second, this person doesn't know me and the reasons behind my choices.

Third, I do not pressure anyone to help me out.

Forth, I wish this person would have really stab me instead of saying that I "enjoy abuse".

I do not know if I will be able to ask for help if things get worst. I don't know. Maybe I will if I can shut down that voice that is telling me not too.

I am so grateful that you are all here for me. I didn't expected any replies. You have touch my heart!

Thank you so very much!