Hey Dex, I am on a crying jag and it stinks. I meant that I could make my back really bad and need heavy duty pain management, thus hospitalized. It is tempting but the doc I have only works with one hospital and it is the one I deal with professionally all of the time. I would hate to see my records looked at by the nurses and social workers I deal with. I am going to park at my doc's office tomorrow and ask to be worked in. I don't want to live woth this pain anymore. It needs to end. I will email the ADA people and see if they can come with me to this meeting, My office told me several months ago that I didn't have a qualifying disability. Severe comples ptsd, depression and degenerative disk disease? Give me a break. They covered their butts by giving me a tape recorder due to memory issues and buying me a very expensive wheeled brief case/computer bag. I still say the only way I am leavinf is firing. I had a lead on another job last week that I will check out. Less stressful.