I could just about picture your session, and it hurt me too. You're in a difficult position, and you write about it eloquently. I'm sure T DID understand your pain. Maternity leave is a long absence and she must know how it is going to affect you even without words. I think what you did with the seashells spoke volumes....
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After being a complete blank slate for 9 months of therapy, she imposed (however unintentionally) her very personal life on my personal life and (however unintentionally) it created a very secure bond and now it is being abruptly taken away. How very selfish. It really hurts. She gets to take 4 months off from her clients to bond with babyT and when we all come back in June we get another heaping load of transference and a deflated seashell of a therapist.
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If you have a secure bond with your T then it won't be taken away by her absence and by her new baby. If she is serious about her work, she won't be a deflated seashell but she will be the same or even better than before! Will you be able to find out when she has the baby or does being a blank slate mean that you won't know anything? I don't understand the "blank slate" theory but if she's a good T, that's all that matters. Does T know how her pregnancy has changed your attitude towards her? Can you share your fears as you posted to us, with her before she leaves?
I am sorry you're in such pain, MAWL. I hope you continue to post here and that it will help somewhat.
