punk rock,

Wow, I totally hear you. I too have all these dreams that require me to get out of current situation and be proactive but it's incredibly scary isn't it. I look at other people and wonder why they can achieve a level of what I want to achieve yet I can't. My famiy too doesn't and will never understand how I am. I guess that's the thing right there. Each of us ourselves is the only one suffering exactly what we're suffering and thus no one else can understand us completely.
Keep dreaming and hoping and I will do. We can't every let hope go.

Z