Chad,

I second Rohag's comment about what you wrote being "eloquent." You have a gift for using words to help us visualize your feelings and situation.

People often are full of empty advice as if it were so easy. I guess we just have to think that they aren't in our bodies and don't know how we feel.

All I can say is I'm glad you keep coming to this website; at least you are getting some of aingst out in writing.

Z