music,

I can appreciate your being scared of doctors as it is difficult. The only thng I would say is that I guess you have to look at your life and way the pros and cons of seeking professional help or not.
If you feel you can finish college well, continue life afterwards without incident or problems, and feel self-fulfilled, then that's OK. But if you have doubts as to those things being a possibility, please consider seeing a psychiatrist and/or therapist.

Z