Hello all,

Well I haven't been here in a couple days due to a case of the stomach flu. It couldn't have come at a worst time.
Last week I took an excess of pills of Depakote and Norvasc wanting it all to end and figured because of all the days I missed, I would be fired. I work four hours away from where I live. I came home, called my work and to my surprise they gave me one more chance. I was so pumped up, imagining a better life for me and my partner, paying off some of my debts, and getting an Ipod Touch 4G. I was supposed to return to work Wed, the 15th.
Monday morning I woke up with the worst heartburn I've ever had, took a zantac, and then started throwing up. When I kept throwing up and then started having diarrhea (I'm sorry about the details), I realized I was having the stomach flu or gastroenteritis as we call it. It was the worst day and I felt my partner wasn't as supportive as he could have been. I probably wasn't the most pleasant person to be around though.
All I could think that day besides getting better was that it had to be fast so that I could leave to travel to my work destination at 3am on Wed morning. That night I had a fever and couldn't keep warm. Today, Tuesday, I feel sick to my stomach and still have diarrhea although I am not throwing up anymore. I feel too sick to go to work, and certainly can't leave to go to the motel in the city where I work at 3am. As it stands, I'm writing this at 2am on Wed morning. This is first time I've been up since I got sick.
So now my dreams of giving my job my all are ruined. I feel like calling them and telling them that they have been so understanding but that this is not fair to them and quit the professional relationship. Granted, this "excuse" was not for psychological reasons but still, I know my manager has lost all faith in me.
Here I had insurance with this job and was looking forward to getting a pdoc and T and being proactive. I was arrested for DUI on November *no prior criminal record* and have a hearing in January, face thousands of dollars in fines and possible jail time, can't pay an attorney, owe family thousands of dollars and I just don't know what to do. Strangely I'm not suicidal right now.
My parents want me to move back with them for a little while but I don't know if that would be a good idea. I feel I can't leave my partner, and he can't come with me.
I feel I just need to to work and all my problems will go away but the same story happens over and over and over again. Get job, lose job to absences, spend time off recovering, go further into debt, feel empowered again, get job, lose job..."loop"
Thanks for letting me get this out.

Z

P.S. My partner swears that my stomach flu is the result of an anxiety attack. I told him I knew it wasn't. I've had the stomach flu before and know what's like. It takes away every ounce of strength one has...at least in my case.