its so insipid...I mean theres T whose gone above and beyond the call of duty and yet I still can't just ake that leap of faith. I want to, and I do so more than before, but still I get sucked back into all that old stuff/tapes/memeorys and can't just take the good that is now on offer and enjoy it, relax with it.

t says its fear of being hurt worse then before but that I am looking for it, wanting it, why the f**k cant he past go f**k itself and let me be.