I know that it is hard. I spent many, many years in therapy and 8 therapists before I could open up snd trust.

just let it take it's natural course you don't have to have started opening up last session. It happend in it's own time when I went through it too. I remember saying... It could be so much easier if you start trusting last this session and don't wait. Try not to think too much about how freeing it feels when you trust or how it will look when you do trust between now and next session. Making all those "movies" inside. Between sessions it is easy to see all the ways T is safe when you didn't do it when you want to. Live life as comfortable as you can between sessions and being good to yourself will get you there faster than having had worried. Soon you will be seeing all the trust that is alredy there when you are with T too.

I write funny at times when I am stiil half asleep (like now) so I may be talking wierd but you will still get the gist of what I am saying. I just wanted to respond quickly... I know I had felt bad to have been where you had been when you posted. I know I felt better seeing people care enough to reply (even if they are too grogy to talk right ). It sounded like you had beat yourself up about it. Wanted to be sure you are being good to yourself.