I want to cut. I really really do. I would except I told my T that I could deal with the emotions that came up in session, where we left them. But really I can't. I don't even really know what they are. They are too mixed up and angry and painful. I don't want her to see it as acting out. At the same time I don't know why I care what she thinks at this point, given that she wont tell me what she thinks. How long would I have to wait until she wouldn't think it was a direct reaction to the session? I wish they would just go away. I knew I shouldn't have brought it up right before break. But I really thought one session would be enough. Now I feel all alone.