i have pictures of birhtday parties i had as a child - i dont remember them - i dont remember my childhood - my T said i will remember when and if my mind decides the time is right

and i said but these were good things why cant i remember then and he said because somtimes when our mind cuts out the bad part we dont want to remember or that is damaging to us - it takes along other parts that are near it like cutting cloth and leaving extra for the hem ...

I dont know if that helps

disassociation is a big one for me - most of the time i might as well have been on another planet

and i find the harder i reach for the memories the faster they slip into the darkness

can a T help you with this? dealing withthe frustration yes - and all the other emotios it raises - but can they tell you why you dont remember for sure - jmo but i dont think so - my T tried hypnotherapy to bring back my memories - all i got was an overwhelming feeling of fear ...

My T said not to waste time trying to remember the past when i should be living in the here and now.. i agree...but .. it would be good to remember the good things...

take care

P7