Welcome, Volatile--read the thread "What's good about being borderline"--we're great!.....well, ok....we have our moments.

Which crap have you been reading, that is making you feel all messed up? Is it the Sanity Score thing?...more on that after I hear your answer.

About borderline: the markers of the condition are unstable moods, the sensation of deep and profound rage, abnormally rocky realtionships, impulsivity, a tendency to self-harm.

There's a sticky at the top of our forum, read that, and follow the link for more info that isn't loaded--clinically, or otherwise.