I'm in a terrible position this year. I have to borrow money from everyone this month just to pay my rent and bills. This is a really bad thing. I have to tell my dad not to get me anything and just give me the money so I can pay my rent and bills. I thought I'd never make rent but found a way I could. I have to borrow $30 off my dad for my gas bill. It's just my half of the bill, but it's gonna be one hell of a tough month.

I don't know how i'm gonna make it. Thank goodness my boyfriend gives me $50 a week for groceries, though...we'll have to use that for bills though. The problem we're gonna have this month is gonna be food. I only get $79 in food stamps...I'm gonna have to go to welfare or something for help with that.

I know I am just boo-hooing about stuff people have problems with but this is really important to me. I have to tell my dad to take back everything he got me just so I can have some money to pay some bills this month! How stupid is that!?