granite, it would probably help if you could ask or write these questions to T yourself, because only SHE knows the answers, not any of us. We're only guessing. I'll try, but keep in mind what I just wrote. Also, what do YOU think? You know T better than any of us do.

1. I hate when I hear "it's their job" but in this case it might help you to realize that T wasn't scared. She didn't take on your feelings. That's why she's T, and we're not.

2. Yes, it's okay for you to be out of control and T to be in control. I think that's the best thing about therapy. Someone is there to support us when we are or think we are, out of control. I am just getting to the point of allowing myself to be somewhat out-of-control with my T, and I saw how she stays completely IN control. You don't have to worry about T!

3. I can relate to this because of what happened at my last session. I was sort of out of control because I, or the child part, was scared, and somehow I wasn't afraid to show that to my T. It was weird. I think you have to trust T that she won't let you go so far out of control that anything bad will happen to you in the session. Again, SHE IS in control because she's the T, and not the one sitting there with the feelings. Does that make sense?

4. This one I can't answer for sure, but I think you would have gone on, taking 1 day at a time like you always do, and coming to PC for help. I'm so glad your son IS able to come home after all.

5. I don't think it was dangerous for T to be in control. I think she was in control in a "good way." You needed to be talked to, and you felt a little safe though it was scary. I know the feeling.

These are my opinions, granite. I'm going with my gut feeling. Like I said, I wish you could ask your T directly and I'm sure she will reassure you.