have u thought about starting out small... i went to a knitting group... startig a volunteer job once a week in jan... feel good about it. in volunteer u just show up and help and that feels good for one thing but u get to start getting use to being around others. baby steps.... then add another day. I plan on doing this until summer then go for a job. But small baby steps that are meaningful and can give u practise might get u to your dreams.. practise in a safe place.. just a thought. I hope you find your way!!!