granite, yes it's meaningful. I see my T on December 28th, if that's a Tuesday.

googley: My first T years ago was sure it was abuse. I don't think the others were sure because, though there was a 5 year age difference, it didn't have the feeling of "abuse" to me. Something when I was older was an invasion of privacy, and felt more like abuse to me though I didn't know it was happening. Sorry to be so vague; I don't feel comfortable with details.

The other incident was hurtful to me, but it wasn't malicious. Still, that's the one that I blocked our for years until I was in therapy and it's the first thing I talked about with all of my Ts. So, definitely these incidents affected me. I've talked about them plenty, but maybe I need to feel them, something I haven't done until this T.