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Originally Posted by flawlessimperfectionsmft
I was just recently diagnosed with Bipolar and Schizophrenia (Early 2010) and I am still very new to the whole idea of having a disorder and all that it entails. Anyways I have this very weird and persistent paranoia that someone is either watching me or constantly around me. For example (past example), I had a crush on this one guy so I often felt like he was around me. It changes everything I do. I mean everything. He can be “with me” when I’m in my house, in the car, at school, anywhere. It changes how I function. For instance I will stop eating or dress a certain way because “he is around” even though he is not and it is just in my head. I’ll play certain music in the car that I’m sure he would like because he is there in my head. I know this seems to be a very messed up thing going on but I was wondering if it had anything to do with my diagnoses of being Schizophrenic or Bipolar. Sometimes I even talk to the person that is “there”. It drives me insane to have this person following me around always being with me. Another weird thing is they are never right next to me, they are always behind me. Like in the car even if the passenger seat were empty he would still sit in the back behind me almost so he can watch me or something. Does anyone have any thoughts on what could be causing this? If you need more information just ask questions. Thank you
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It sounds like you should probably speak with your doctor. I do understand the feeling you have. I used to have that feeling when I was in college. The place was so big and overwhelming and I was convinced that there were people watching me and judging me for a higher purpose in life.
Yesterday, I had a little bout of paranoia because of the way people were standing and sitting in their cars at the p-doc's office. I thought for a brief moment that they were hired by some govt. agency to monitor me. I convinced myself that I was too boring for the govt. to want to watch, but the feeling followed me until I was at home.
At the moment I am diagnosed with Bipolar 1 with psychotic features.