Sorry I can't really answer too much about it medically, as it's something I've only experienced relatively mildly (once within memory rather more), but... the thing that really struck me about your post (and I hope I'm not out of line in saying this, but here goes...). Even if he really was there, please consider that you are you. And SHOULD be you! Your one-of-a-kind wonderful self! What you like, who you are -- in all realms is VERY important to maintain. There's compromise, and then there's diminishing yourself into someone you aren't...and if it goes too far, sublimating yourself into a virtual non-existence. And that is never satisfying in the long run. To put it lightly. I'm not just saying this theoretically. I did this (not consciously, and not totally) and ultimately it made me absolutely miserable. There was nothing quite so freeing and satisfying as figuring this out and returning to MYSELF. In total. This is what I like. This is what I don't like. This is me. You either like it or you don't, but at least we'll know that it's geniune. (Which is not to say rude... like when someone says something completely obnxious then cloaks it in the phrase, "well, I'm just being honest!") And thing is, that we want others to be their true selves. Then we should do it ourselves as well, right?!

Much