Music Rules Me,
Gosh I hear myself in your words. But I really got tired of being down all the time. I am back on the forum because of my depression. It comes and it goes. Baby steps is what I learned to help me get out of my funk. Set little goals for myself, nothing major, just little stuff. School must be important for you to be there. Do you like Drama Club/ the Theater? Great place to go and find some meaning.

As for talking to someone, boy I know what you mean, but they are there to help you not to judge you, plus they the doctors can't tell anyone what you are saying. Once I got over my fear of thinking if I tell someone they are going to think of me as a crazy person. Once I found that person that I connected with, it could have been the color of the building or how the plants in the office or the pictures that hung on the wall. But once I found that I could let myself talk I didn't stop...I kept going till I realized that I am okay---I am not crazy or weird or anything like that...boy what a relief it was to just talk. Start small-- or write..
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