yeah, jb, I used to AGONIZE over whether to call her or when to call her. Why call her NOW, if I didn't need to 5 minutes ago? Why not wait one more minute? And another? And then finally one time I told her how hard it was for me to decide when I should call her, and she said, oh, I'll fix that for you. If you think about calling me, call me.
It took lots and LOTS of times of her saying that for me to believe it, and even now I need her to tell me to call her if I need to or want to, but it's progress.
And boy, do I want to call her right now. REALLY REALLY BAD. But it's late and I will feel worse if I call now then if I just wait it out and call her tomorrow.
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She left pieces of her life behind her everywhere she went.
"It's easier to feel the sunlight without them," she said.
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