I thought I had posted a message, but I guess I just looked at the preview and forgot to submit it.

But wanted prayer, since I was quite down earlier. Husband is gone, drives truck, but no runs for about a week. And his truck needed work on it, costing 5400., and put us farther back.

Both grown daughters had lived with us, now they don't, fairly recent changes, and they'd helped quite a bit. Now son and his wife are here, but it's harder with them, not as close to them.

Anyway, I live in my parents home, which was signed over to me and my brother several years before our parents passed away. And husband and I have thought of selling to help get out of debt. But now, not sure my brother will remove his name off the deed, even though my dad and him said the house was mine. My husband and I were the ones that sacrificed. And my brother is better off than we are.

And I don't even like where we live, it's a bad area in a way, with crime and all. But no, it seems like I'm stuck even longer here, with no hope of getting out. Sure I might miss it some, have been here 6 years, which is a good amount of time for us. We moved enough, and I hate moving, but I feel I'm dying here.

Anyway, would appreciate prayers, concern, advice, etc. Had wished earlier I could walk away from it all, let my brother have it all. Disappear, one way or another, but feel at least my pregnant daughter and her son need me, even though she's far away. But there are plans for me to be there when baby is born. I'm just still so down about things, and feel so helpless.

What's really bad, is we were in the ministry before, but haven't been to a church for years. Did meet for House Church, but is hard with husband gone most of the time. It's just awful, I guess, my situation. Might like a part time job or something to help with expenses, but have no confidence.

Well going to let this do. Have gone on too long here. Thanks for reading this and for any help.