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Originally Posted by Emotionally Dead
It's funny how all of my life I have lived off the fact that I don't need anyone to survive. That my own motivation and determination will get me through my life, and if someone comes along great if not fine. Yet at this time of my life, where I am at the deepest part of depression, I find it so hard to not have thoughts of just having someone to talk to who understands.. Or will just comfort me and tell me that not everything is my fault and that things will get better.. Which I guess is sort of pathetic and it's pathetic that I don't even care who it is I wouldn't even care if it was an ex being the one to give me a hug and comfort me and that's the worst part.. Hopefully I am not the only one that feels that way but I feel so alone right now..
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I too remember when I was independent. I didn't need anyone. I imagined myself being the best person to be with if someone cared to join me, but until then I was completely content- perhaps better off alone. Fact is you don't know what loneliness is until you know what loneliness is. It's completely different when you can no longer keep yourself company. The ego is a social being. Ego keeps you warm when he is healthy, and dies when you do not feed him. You now must find the right diet for ego- a healthy blend of friends, and alone time- preferably constructive alone time.
