(((zoo)))

I'm sorry you're going thru this right now. Sounds really bad, and I hope you hear from T. I take ativan for extreme anxiety, and like you I take it sparingly, only when it's bad. Sometimes I will go a couple days in a spiral, then I remember to take the damn ativan. Have you ever tried taking a dose of benedryl? Sometimes that can relax you enough to sleep, or at least take the edge off.