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Originally Posted by CliveWild
Wow !! I seem to have resonated with a lot of people. I am happy to have connected with you and I thank you all for the well thought out responses. I hope I have picked up some useful tips from your replies.
When "I had a life", I experienced a lot of the things you have described. I have not worked in 5 years and not very much in the last 10 years. I have been closing down my life as a defence mechanism. I am now scared to do anything for fear of problems. I survive on a mundane routine that is largely based on daytime TV. I increasingly isolate myself. I think my lack of a purpose is my biggest trigger to my worry and anxiety.
It is nice to meet you all.  |
That is where I am now...Isolated away from the world...although I have a two year old going on three so my day time TV is not the same as yours (I hope
) . I have been trying to get out of the house with her more because I know that I could cause her a lot of damage if I don't. She was a very social child with a ton of friends before I fell off the face of the earth in September. I have tried to get out for my Husband and older children too. I really just want to curl up and never leave again. Friday I am taking the baby to a Christmas party at her old daycare. I have to get dressed and get her dressed and drive 30 minutes and buy a present and deal with people and lots of kids - the thought of this is killing me, but I am going to do it because she talks about these kids less and less and I know it's hurting her not being with them and being stuck in the house with me all day. She loved daycare - couldn't wait to get there and didn't want to leave when I went to pick her up - she just loves to play all the time, very social and it's great. I feel so bad having her cooped up all day. Being on unemployment I can't afford to put her in daycare.
