rainbow, i think it's interesting how your session worked out. the "hug" at the end is a good metaphor for how things can be in reality.. like she wanted to hug you, you wanted to hug her, but for reasons beyond both of your control - you couldn't. this didn't mean that the love and support wasn't there, it just meant that it couldn't be displayed in that way at that moment. and instead, you both did what you could to connect with each other in a way that was mutually safe and healthy.

i think this is a good representation of a lot of what the therapy process is really like. there are things that we want, that our therapists probably want as well, that neither one can give - for reasons beyond your control. again, this doesn't mean that the love and support isn't there, it just can't always be displayed - regardless of the actual connection.

anyway, there's my insight on your insights!