bpd2
I just have to say that I just recently seriously like in the last few months allowed my T to even use the word bpd....I cringe still really cringe when the word is used. Yes the stigma in all reality is hurtful and painful. I has a very good friend (and still do) however when I told her that they were trying to dx me with that she flat out told me she couldn't handle being friends with some one with that dx... Then why!!! For all the reason's you listed above. My heart broke over and over and I never talked about it again. EVER and that was years ago till like I said now...No matter what T's said. My T specializes in BPD and DID so yeah she's very good at what she does ...
I am sobbing now (big baby) ugh just thinking about how painful this illness is and how un-understood it is...Yet you show up with people everyday whether it be in your kids school, grocery stores, or dunno if you have a place of spirituality and no one knows when your saying things off the wall ....You try to communicate what it's like with those close to you and they act is if your making excuses ...
So just wanted to say I understand and yeah offering support...
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the past is my future. the pain is my emotion that is my prison. what I feel is as confusing as to why I feel it?
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