Here's what happened:

We hit a breaking point last week regarding my neverending confidentiality worries and his complete lack of reassurance. When I was walking out, I turned back and caught one of those severely irritated looks on his face like, "Get out of here already! Arrrrrrrrgh!"

Obviously, I was devastated. I wasn't sure what would happen next. I picked up another appt. for the following week so I would have 2 instead of 1.

He started the next session completely differently telling me what he was feeling! Finally! And asking what I thought. Then wondering where we should go from there. And I decided I was just going to take the plunge and decide to trust that my confidentiality was preserved, rather than trusting him per say because he didn't say all that much to trust in. I told him that, too.

Then we went to the issue I was worrying about in the first place that I was reluctant to share with him because he had been so removed and unreassuring.

It went fabulous! He got it. He was reassuring on this issue. Something changed. The next appt (today) actually went somewhere! And he doesn't hate me. And I felt RELIEVED at the end...like better than when I walked in instead of worse.

Just wanted to give you guys something positive about my T situation since it had been consistently negative from the time I started posting here.

Thanks for everyone's support. I really would have been lost without y'all!