(((((Oceanwave)))) Thank you for the reminder. I am not sure why this touches a deep and unhealed part of me. Very interesting that part is. Oh yes, I am staying away from email for sure. After I read that, I had a panic attack just trying to check my account. It is like I am now terrified of my own email !!!! LOL at self !!!

Just read your additional note. I can't open my inbox now. So it will have to wait. That is ok. I need to just be away from him to gather my own thoughts and figure it out. I have you all here on PC to help, so I am really not allowing myself to isolate the way I try to isolate. :-)